I'm not sure who I was dreaming of, she smelled and felt like Elizabeth, but she wasn't. She talked and moved ,even looked like Noelle. I think Noelle was one of my 1st crushes, once upon a time in middle school. It was fairly short lived though. I later found out that I preferred academics to cheerleaders. Not to say Noelle wasn't smart. She just wasn't rocket scientist smart, sort of in the fashion that Elizabeth is mind numbingly brilliant.

It felt as though we had been together for a few months, however we were still learning very much about each other. My race was very different in the dream, but yet not a negative(as it would have been in the south). I think we were at a funeral. I was wearing a cub scout uniform(I was a boyscout once upon a time) and had at lest 3 purple hearts. I was 35, and not sure if i still served. I sat on center upon a grand balcony and she stood behind me. She kissed me in raid succession on my right side as Elizabeth had done from behind on my left side. I pushed her back, kissed her on her check once, and said it was a formal event, and that we needed to behave ourselves. Although throughout the dream there were many such actions from her...but I don't think there was anything more than that.

Later in the procession every one went in to the building that the balcony we were in, over looked. In hindsight, it could have even been a play, however the air was very heavy with a sobering grief.

A bit later we were in a dinner, eating burgers, a mutual friend was there (whom I don't know in reality). There was lots of chit chat and he then took off to either the bathroom or off in general. She then jumped in my lap, exclaimed something to the effect of "thank god he's gone" and we started sharing pictures. She showed me a photo of her car which looked more like schematics and design schemes. I told her it looked like a cheap plastic Japanese toy, unless it was vintage in which case is was most likely solid. She said it was from a lot in G (2 towns over), she mentioned how she spent a lot of time in G (as have I recently when in CT) Then she once again kissed my check and was about to move in when a buzzer rang over head. It rang a few times and she moaned how it always happens to her. Something to do with how the restaurant operated. We either hung around town for a bit, or she left I can't recall, however we parted ways a bit thereafter.

Later on I received a handwritten text message, it was casual, but the sort couples who have been together write one another (so I'm guessing) She had long and pronounced J's, and F's very classic, avaunt guard. Then again I have very pronounced J's and F's, but very modern (I'd guess) Elizabeth said they were "funny". I didn't read the entire thing, it was sort of trying to read a letter through a magnifying glass, said glass being my cell phone. Actually, I recall someone asking about it in the dream, but every so briefly, too brief to recall. She said something about being down to 136lb's. I recall being happy for her, as was the tone of her message but, her figure sort of like Elizabeth's, twigs the lot of them. I wouldn't have imagined she was anything more than , 110?.

There was something about a building in the city, that she was moving to NY, to be closer? I can't recall. I do know she was frustrated with me, that I didn't give myself to her.

There was more, it's just that I can't recall any more.

¶ 12/17/2006 04:17:00 AM

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